Agape.

Agape means love. But it's more complicated and specific than that. Agape is the term for a perfect love, a forgiving love, the kind of love that God feels for His children. I am not referring to romantic love, so those of you who are tired of my posts about angst and love, this is not one of those posts. And I thank you all for your patience. I strive to be someone who is poised and balanced and wise. But on this blog, I have been far from that. I have been stormy, emotional, paradoxical, and, worst of all, flowery. These are trespasses which are inexcusable and out of line with my character and my mind. I have been . . . scattered lately.

Tonight I am here to discuss something that I have come close to abandoning. My faith. It really pains me to be typing this. I have found myself in a space in life where I leave no time, no thought for spirituality. I have closed my heart to the perfect love, the love of God, and I am numb. And I hate it.